Then truth set in.
And lack of confidence.
And I procrastinated for nearly 10 months. TEN long months people.
I had every excuse in the book on why I couldn’t do this project. I was ready to give up and I was thinking of over 9 million reasons why it wouldn’t work for me. And how I would tell them I was backing out.
I thought I’ll just use Happy Mommy Box as my excuse. I’ll tell them that I’m sorry I had no idea that I was going to be starting a business venture with a friend and that, unfortunately, there would just be no time to fit this in.
Sounded legit, right?!
But I woke up one day and I asked myself this question…
“What’s really holding you back from doing this project?”
Was it that I didn’t think I was capable of learning the guitar? Was it that I wasn’t sure if I could find the time to practice and be good enough? Was it that I was afraid to do something, like commit to raising money when I wasn’t certain anyone would donate? Was it that I didn’t want to let down an organization doing great things for something that was so dear to my heart – orphans?
And when I truly thought about it. It was a little bit of all of those things.
FEAR OF FAILING.
Of not reaching the $1,000.
Of not being able to learn a song.
And for some reason, that morning while I was taking a shower, I decided that I wasn’t going to let fear stand in the way of me doing this. It’s held me back too many times in the past and I wasn’t about to let it steal another great opportunity from me.
Not this time.