January 2012 to be exact. I just went back and looked.
That was nearly 2 children ago.
Sometimes my implementation of projects can be good, but my blog post follow up is apparently lacking. Which is funny since 99% of my projects start out as projects because I think “That would be a good blog post!”
I originally committed to doing this Guitar Project back in September 2013. I met the owners of Mocha Club at a conference last year and I immediately was like “I’m in.”
Then truth set in.
And lack of confidence.
And I procrastinated for nearly 10 months. TEN long months people.
I had every excuse in the book on why I couldn’t do this project. I was ready to give up and I was thinking of over 9 million reasons why it wouldn’t work for me. And how I would tell them I was backing out.
I thought I’ll just use Happy Mommy Boxas my excuse. I’ll tell them that I’m sorry I had no idea that I was going to be starting a business venture with a friend and that, unfortunately, there would just be no time to fit this in.
Sounded legit, right?!
But I woke up one day and I asked myself this question…
“What’s really holding you back from doing this project?”
Was it that I didn’t think I was capable of learning the guitar? Was it that I wasn’t sure if I could find the time to practice and be good enough? Was it that I was afraid to do something, like commit to raising money when I wasn’t certain anyone would donate? Was it that I didn’t want to let down an organization doing great things for something that was so dear to my heart – orphans?
And when I truly thought about it. It was a little bit of all of those things.
FEAR OF FAILING.
Of not reaching the $1,000.
Of not being able to learn a song.
And for some reason, that morning while I was taking a shower, I decided that I wasn’t going to let fear stand in the way of me doing this. It’s held me back too many times in the past and I wasn’t about to let it steal another great opportunity from me.
It’s now officially been three years in the making…this big boy room reveal.
If I had to pick the #1 requested blog post from reader emails…it would, without a doubt, be the request to see my middle child’s bedroom. Probably because it’s one of the only rooms I don’t have pictures of on the blog.
And poor Mr. Bents…his mommy just never could get his room together.
You would think that since it’s blue it would be the easiest of the rooms to finish, but something about that deep dark navy just left my brain feeling confused.