Yesterday was not as easy as I hoped. In fact, yesterday really sucked. A lot.
Here I am pouting before I had to leave in the morning.
The pouting truly never ended. I just don’t remember it being this hard the first two times.
Not to mention I went to put on my old work pants, and BAM, couldn’t get them buttoned. That’s a mood killer.
I want to be chasing Bents around the house picking up the 47 pieces of Lucky Charms that he just dumped on the floor out of his ginormous mixing bowl. I want to be pretending I’m Megatron and having P get mad at me because, how dare I be Megatron! That’s who he wanted to be. And then cordially agreeing to be Optimus Prime, but only if he’ll let me be Megatron next time. I want to be rocking SJ in his glider as I am singing to him in my
“not so fabulous” actually terrible singing voice.
I want to go back to worrying about poopy diapers and dirty bottles. I never thought I’d say that. But it’s true, I was loving my time off with my kids. Even my crazy kid the middle child.
Oh what I wouldn’t give for him to chuck a toy at my head right now. That would be so much better than sifting through the stack of work on my desk.
Speaking of work, I was beginning to wonder if they would notice if I just extended my leave for another week or so.
Guess this answers that question.
So, here I am. Back to being a working momma. I know I will get readjusted, but MAN, THIS SUCKS!
And to the lovely commenter who faulted me for complaining about having to go back to work when “the unemployment rate is so low” saying “shame on you”…
…I’m a mom who loves her kids. How dare I love my kids!
Mothers usually have compassion for other mothers.
So thank you to all of you that have been encouraging me and loving on me.
Last night my husband and I had “family prayer” time with P. We all sat on the bed holding holds and just spent time praying together. P prays about the funniest things…including (and NEVER forgetting) thanking God for his snacks. My husband prayed over me regarding my return to work, and I truly have to say…I instantly felt less stressed. I know today is going to be a better day!