We celebrated New Year’s with some of our good friends last night and, unlike the usual, we stayed out way past our bedtime. I can actually say that this is the second year in a row now that I made it to the midnight kiss without falling asleep first.
When we arrived back home our 3 year old had JUST emerged from his room like a walking zombie and wanted mommy to lay with him.
Because his convincing little voice is hard to resist… I did it.
I finally got him BACK asleep around 2:00 AM. I snuck out of his room to head to my cozy bed except I’m awful at falling asleep quickly so it took me another 45 minutes before I was fully asleep. If I had to guess I’d say it was close to 3:00 AM before I shut my eyes.
And at 7:00 AM I hear…
“knock, knock, knock…” on our bedroom door.
Oh you know, it was just that same sweet 3 year old who was zombie walking at 2:00 AM and he was up bright and early ready to par-tay.
But instead of shhhhh-ing him off like I normally try for…I took one look at him and my heart literally melted into a thousand pieces.
He must have found our party hats from the night before and he took it upon himself to put it on, walk up to my bed and whisper… “You weady to pawty mommy? I got some wegos weady and we can bwuild stuff. Come on. It gunna be a fun pawty, I pwomise.”
How on earth can I say no to that?
Klaya, on the other hand, has not been near as excited about celebrating New Year’s as SJ. LOL!
I don’t think she appreciates the party gear so much.
That’s a tough side-eye she’s giving us. Phew.
All day I have been thinking about how incredibly blessed the last year has made me.
The same boy who amazes me with his incredible sweetness and his out of the blue “I wub choo’s”… Is the same little boy who was making me question my parenting abilities 2 months ago. And despite his inability to sleep in ever (not even on New Years Day) he has literally become the most loving and caring child I have ever met. Not to mention that my other two boys are really growing up and becoming respectful, joyful little men.
I feel like God is finally preparing our hearts, our home and our children for our adopted child.
I remember thinking, when we were going through all the behavior issues, that I would never be able to handle a new child on top of what I was dealing with. I remember praying and saying out loud, “I see God. I see.”
Regardless of what you are going through you still WANT and DESIRE for God to answer your prayers. Even when you know why He’s not.
But now when I think about our new child, our new life and all the NEW that comes with what we are about to experience… I feel ready. I feel anxious.
I love 2015 already and not just because it’s the year that we will meet our new child, but because it’s the year that our family will finally be complete.
It’s the year that we will strive to make our marriage more.
It’s the year that we will let Jesus guide us EVEN MORE than we did last year.
It’s the year that we will take adventures and spend time making memories that will be everlasting.
I had a feeling that 2014 was going to be hard to top, but I have no doubt… 2015? Is going to be the best year yet.
Let’s do this!